VIDEO: Billie Eilish reveals she considered taking her own life in 2018

25 January 2020, 13:00 | Updated: 25 January 2020, 13:01

Billie Eilish at Spotify Hosts Best New Artist Party 2020
Billie Eilish at Spotify Hosts Best New Artist Party 2020. Picture: Frazer Harrison/Getty Images for Spotify

The Bad Guy singer told Gayle King in a special pre-GRAMMYs interview how she had "no joy left" in her life.

Billie Eilish has opened up about her struggle with mental health and revealed she thought about taking her own life in 2018.

Speaking to Gayle King ahead of the GRAMMYs this weekend, where she is nominated for six gongs, the 18-year-old singer recalled: "I was so unhappy and I was so like, joyless."

She added: "I don’t want to be too dark, but I genuinely didn’t think I’d make it to 17".

When King asked of she ever thought of doing something to herself, she responded: "Yeah," adding: "I think about this one time I was in Berlin, and I was alone in my hotel, and I remember there was a window right there, and I, like… God, I remember crying because I was thinking about how …the way that I was gonna die was that I was gonna do it."

Eilish revealed that she eventually told her mother about her problems, who began declining opportunities and slowing down her schedule.

Speaking about what she says to her fans who are struggling, the When The Party's Over singer said: "I just grab them by the shoulders and I'm like 'Please take care of yourself, and be good to yourself, and be nice to yourself. Don't take that extra step and hurt yourself further than [...] and you can't take it back."

The 62nd GRAMMY Awards takes place on Sunday 26 January.

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